April 6th

Praise God... Seth did not need a platelet transfusion!! His counts are still low but they are out of the dangerous zone. Last week was a really hard week emotionally. He lost 4 pounds and was so frustrated with eating and having to go through all of this crazy stuff. Yesturday I realized how drained emotionally I really was. It is hard to hear your son tell you that he hates himself and hates his life. But who can blame a 12 year old boy for hating to have to go through cancer. I feel his frustration with it and also share the same hate for cancer, but the other day I was thinking of it from a different prespective. Cancer has brought a closeness to Seth and his brother that they have never had, it has made us utterly dependent of God (realizing that we can not make it through life without God) and has made us as parents take joy in the simply things in life. How amazing it is that God can take something so horrible and bring some good out of it. This morning Seth's attitude is really good and seems to be happy and eating again. He still continues physical theropy every Monday and is being schooled with his homebound tutor. Seth is really looking forward to having his siblings home for Easter break this week. Thank you again for all your prayers! Also a special thankyou to Danielle Kreider who made a "count down to the end of chemo chain" for Seth. He cuts one off every night and makes sure he reads the bible verse on the one he removed. Words can not explain how blessed we are for all you!