November 2nd

Happy November!!! Seth is doing so good and I praise God for that! Seth is once again bald. His hair was falling out too much that is was getting in his food and down his shirt and making him itchy. So the other day he had his first hair cut in 15 months. I thought his first hair cut would be a memorable moment not realizing that it would consist of me shaving his hair off and making him bald again. Seth and I were able to laugh about it and said maybe we should call him patches because he had hair some places and not others. It might sound silly we laugh about hair falling out but you have to take some things lightly or you get so frustrated with it all. School is going ok for him. He is having some trouble keeping up good grades because of all the school days he has missed but I am thankful for understanding teachers. Tomorrow Seth and I go back to Johns Hopkins for a checkup. I think this is the time we will find out what the future will look like such as appointments, MRIs and when should we expect Seth's port to be taken out. I can honestly say the future scares me a little bit. But the Lord reminds me how faithful He has been to Todd, me, and our children and that will never change. Just last week I was able to let myself be happy the treatments are over. I know that sounds crazy but when you are on the "journey" your goal is to get to the end and be down with all the chemo and radiation. But when it is over you are faced with the idea that the cancer could come back. And to watch any of my children go through that again is almost unbearable to me. But I praise God that He has placed an excitement in my heart for our future and a joy to be able to celebrate with my son! I am so proud of Seth even though he had to give up a year of his childhood, he is still filled with joy and makes us all laugh. And also our other children, Shane, Sarah, and Laura who have been amazing supporters to their brother through all of this. But we am most thankful to our Lord and Savior who with Him our family was able to walk a journey of cancer with peace in our hearts knowing God was in control.